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What then? Hmm?

Well, alright then.  I have things a bit more organized in my head now, and I’m ready to talk.   About new designs, getting angry, seeing ourselves in others, dating, who the Texan is, and blogging.  To address all these things at once would make for one wicked-long post, though, and my fingers might fall off.   Let’s start with a quick note on blogging, and then move on to dating and seeing ourselves in others, shall we?

When I started blogging, it was my intention to introduce people to me and to the process of art making.  It wasn’t long, however, before I realized that blogging was doing something for me.   Having quickly developed a reader base, I felt a responsiblity to my readers to write regularly;  I had asked for your ear, you gave it to me, and now I needed to respect the gift of your attention.   Writing regularly for an audience has helped clarify so much in my mind.  Imposing structure on my writing in order to make it good reading has forced me to imposed structure on my thoughts, too, and that’s a good thing.

But what if one’s blog is tied to one’s business, and one is open about one’s identity, and what one is struggling with is very personal?   Where does that leave one’s blog, then?  Hmm?  And, if blogging bolsters one’s well-being and creative process, but one feels she can’t write about that which is very intimate, then what happens to one’s head?  Then one is f***ed, I tell you.

Not feeling comfortable exposing you all to the mess in my head and heart ,  I even set up an alternative, anonymous blog.  That way, I figured,  I could delve into the most tedious, intimate details of anything, and I wouldn’t be held accountable in any way.  I could use horrible language, and have a “mature content” warning pop up when you entered the blog. I could gossip about code-named people.  I could talk smack about religion and politics.  I could dabble in erotica!  In the end, though, writing another blog seemed almost like cheating on this one, and I’m terrible at keeping secrets.  I’d just tell you about it, anyway.

Hmm, that was more than a quick note on blogging, and so we’ll need to save dating for tomorrow.

Thank you for sticking with me.


7 thoughts on “What then? Hmm?

  1. It’s funny that you mention an anonymous blog; I too blog anonymously and it’s become my therapy! I vent, I reminisce, I talk politics, religion, crappy family…everything I can’t say out loud but keeps me up at night I write about.

    I don’t worry about who I offend, don’t read it if you don’t like it and there have been comments made where a war of words has occurred, either about my liberal political beliefs or my disdain for organized religion (you know I have that Irish Catholic shame and Jewish guilt thing happening) and I do it because sometimes folks are fair-weathered when it comes to problems in one’s life. It’s easier to write about, than to burden a friend….

    But writing anonymously, I don’t hurt the family or any individual by getting it off my chest; maybe it’s a passive-aggressive thing with me, but I always feel better afterward and I can usually let it go.

  2. These thoughts and issues pervade the blogosphere. I have struggled with these very issues myself. I’m a writer who has been blogging since last July, and using my blog to build a “platform” for when my book is ready.

    So, these things cross my mind with every post at my site. Is what I’m saying going against what my writer-self wants wants people to know about me?

    Should I talk about that fact that I have MS? Do I want people to see me though a MS veil?

    (I, too, started an anonymous site for about two months to get some things off my chest, and it made me feel like I had a split personality! So I canned it with haste. I felt ‘weird’ being anonymous.)

    I think the best advice I received from a friend was something like this, “You don’t have to give it *all*, Lori, only give enough to be true to yourself, but save some for just yourself. Think of all the people you respect and admire, and what would you want them to read what you’re writing?”

    I save the gritty stuff for my journal, and write about enough things so that I’m human and have a unique voice. I think that’s the balance I’m trying to strike, and might be something for you to think about.

    P.S. If you have something gritty to get off your mind, just email me or a friend instead! 😀

  3. I completely understand you, Katie. I’ve finally begun blogging on my portfolio site, and my Twitter is also on display to the side, which some have said isn’t very professional. Now, I think if I were applying to some stuffy jobs where they would frown if I said the word crap, perhaps I’d care. But since this is a site to showcase my art, which is usually a naked lady, then I believe the viewer getting a glimpse at my personality and personal life isn’t necessarily a terrible thing.

    I want to get things off of my chest just as badly as the next person, but it seems I just have the balls to not care that the people on the internet will be privy to my personal thoughts. It’s a bit cathartic. And in the end, do we not seem more real, more personable to our clients? I’d rather buy or work with someone I could readily get a vibe off of, than someone that seemed secretive or boring. I’m just sayin’.

    1. New rule: if your site and your blog has nakey ladies on it? Then you get to curse as much as you want!

      I agree. An artist’s site probably should be more personal than a standard professional blog. But where is the line between being open about one’s self, and being candid to the extent that it undermines your credibility? Being comfortable with who I am, I’m quite open about who I am and where I’ve been, and I admire others who are similarly open with themselves. I tend to feel that if something needs to be hidden, then I should make a better choice.

      However, I’d be foolish to not keep in mind that many people feel differently about candor. Many people can be judgmental, and in the long run I need to live in the same world and get along with these people, too. Others’ perception of us can affect our lives, and in my case, my children’s lives. I’m trying to walk that line; to stay just this side of that line where my transparency might bring negative consequences into my life.

      1. You make very valid points, and even I, without children or anyone really other than myself to worry about the well-being of, I still have to be a bit critical of what I put out into the universe. I’ve recently seen where perhaps I’m a little too candid on my Twitter, where I tend to get everything off my chest, even as cryptic as it can sometimes be, I think it could possibly be a little too much information. But at the same time, I like that it is a peek into my daily life and struggles and happy thoughts and whatnot.

        The line is sometimes so carelessly drawn that I’m not sure where I’m standing and if I can balance at all.

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